Cherish Everything that happened

and its 2010..

2010-03-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

.. blogging again...oh not again...I just come up with the idea to write something when I read a friend blog, more over, my highschool buddy's Q suddenly urging me to write a post.

my last post was 20080918
and right now, it was 20100306.

thats why I give this post title of : and its 2010..

It was 534 days from my last post to today.
Or 1 year, 5 months, 16 days excluding the day of my last post. ( or alternatively 46,137,600 seconds
768,960 minutes
12,816 hours
76 weeks (rounded down))

So many thingss...many things happen..its a lesson of life. Happiness, sadness, that really almost make half of the adult and step to maturedness, thought I got during these time. Thank God, I am still bless with all the things I have now, and maybe will have to let go some..so that I don't lose the other thing that really valuable to my journey of life.

I began to understand the meaning of life..love, destiny, faith and people are just weak and we do need faith to keep us STRONG.

Whenever I feel down, now I hold to my faith, people really change and sometime if we do sin, that sin will lead us to be fond of our faith and with God will and our own will, we will be the new good person.

I am reading the La Tahzan book now ( Don't Be Sad) and it really GOOD.

I'm blogging

2008-09-18T20:26:00.002+08:00

Greeting myself hello again..it have been a long time I didn't do blog, currently I'm in my loveliest hometown, Sabah..!!
Came back for eid-mubarak..Hari raya..
Then its time to gather together with families, meeting my old friends..
but ever since I'm in Sabah, I havent announce my arrival..haha ( macam apala pula..announce arrival kunun)
I'm coming back for a short period, but for sure I always love my hometown, I come back with great hope..I'm looking my self in the future as a successful person..proud to be one of my family member-thinking of going futher for my doctorate, but then I decided I must make something successful that really gonna make myself proud of my own effort, make valuable jobs and important thing, make money first with my own effort..
I am a girl who wants to be succesful on my own feet, and independent girl that has to be lovely of course..
~~ADIOS~~

Just a pieces of heart echoe...

2008-05-04T08:47:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we close our eyes and just listen to the echoes of our hearts. We all fall in love and there are times when we love so much that we lose ourselves in our own emotions. More often than not, we wonder why there is love that grows and there is love that grows cold.
We would start to search for answers and try to find where love has gone wrong. But in the end, we find ourselves where we started for we cannot question love when it has its own reason. Love will always be as it always has been silent, mysterious and deeply profound.
Many of us believe that love is forever, that love never dies only to be disillusioned in the end when we find ourselves empty and longing. We mistakenly look at love as a need to be fulfilled. But it is only a gift given to us. We shouldn’t hold it in our hands for we may never find the strength to let it go when it decided to leave. We should only embrace its warmth and glow while it last and then freely open our arms when it’s time to say goodbye.

We fall in love with someone; we don’t want that feeling to end for it is everything we want it to be. We pray that love will stay and grow in our hearts. But if it doesn’t, then we should never let ourselves taken by it.

For life should not end where heartaches begin.
There is always a reason why we have to move on. When we have to say goodbye to the things we wanted to stay forever. Let us not waive our hands with a heavy heart. For love will set its wings free and find a place where it belongs.

-this post I cut from my Friendster blog (not active anymore).

Here again

2008-03-31T22:17:00.005+08:00

Been busy and quite these few moments..hehe
I've been watching the film AWAKE..
and it was just a good story..I like the way story presented, and I been crazy for the main actor..Hayden Christensen

hmmm...

2008-03-10T00:10:00.002+08:00

Hmmmmm??!

Why goods sold in Malaysia is so expensive...??
from car, house, clothes, handphones...??

designing..designing

2008-02-24T20:14:00.004+08:00

I love taking photos, and a little bit narcist
The photo above was me, with the most precious things
in my life..Necklace given by the special person in my life..
and i love designing photo.. I am using Adobe Photoshop CS2,
and for designing this photo, just adding some filter- using magnetic tools,
text, blending the text..and here we go...

The photo above also my design..
a bit messy but actually I dun really have the idea with the messy thing...
just trying and I know it doesn't look really good but..ya..just ignore it, I just want to
do some editting, designing with my own idea..

pssst: This photo is copyright of BEEYHONYE.DESIGN
please ask for permission for downloading these photos..
hehe..txx

Fashion 10 rules for 2008

2008-02-21T23:34:00.002+08:00

Lets share this together, article I read from TIMESONLINE on 10 new fashion rules for 2008.

1. Ankle straps foreshorten the leg. But only if the ankle strap is the width of a belt, slices horizontally across your ankle and is worn over bare legs or clashing tights. However, is this really so much worse than wearing a shoe that falls off every time you have to negotiate a stair? The right strap – sitting slightly below the ankle – can help define an ankle. Besides, if you wear them with toning tights, cankle problem solved.
2. All things in moderation. Yawn. In 2008, one item in your outfit should be utterly immoderate: huge ring, stonking platform,deafening pop of colour, vast cuffs. Enough superlatives for you?
3. Every woman needs a white shirt. Wrong. Only women who look good in a white shirt need one. Some look better in white T-shirts.

4. Women over 50 can’t wear their hair long. They can if their hair is still shiny and fabulous. File in bin along with the rule about blonde being more flattering as you age – not on everyone it isn’t.
5. Kate Moss and Nicole Kidman are style icons. Ergo even when they look dodgy, they must be right. Wrong. Kate Moss and Nicole Kidman are human and, as 2007 proved, fallible. Trust your instincts on this. And can we agree that the words style, fashion and icon should never again be used in the same paragraph?
6. You can’t go wrong with a trench coat. Actually, you can. Epaulettes, flaps and lots of buttons swamp some women. Just because it's a classic, it doesn’t mean it’s right for you.
7. Black and navy blue will never do. Another one from the Ark, although I think periwinkle was the hot shade then. Black and navy can look very chic – black tights and certainly black patent shoes toughen up a navy outfit and stop it looking like a uniform.
8. High heels lengthen the legs. True, obviously. But while high is good, higher isn’t always better. When a short woman teeters on stilts, bottom and bosoms set off at weird angles, making her resemble a spiral staircase, the issue of whether her legs have technically become longer is irrelevant.
9. No miniskirts over 40. More superannuated diktats from the age police. If you’ve got them (and they still look fabulous), flaunt them, but probably best to draw the line at the lower thigh.

10. Don’t wear the same trend twice. Utter twaddle. Trends come round so fast now that would preclude almost everything we have come to recognise as clothing

Fashion are like rules, that has to be follow, but don't be a fashion victim. Our instinct, heart and mind that should decide what rules we should we get in..hohoho
ohhh..hahaha Finally I'm in mood of blogging again..

heritage

2008-02-15T21:30:00.006+08:00

Hello

I haven't blogging for how many day..??
these fews days just a hectic time and more, I don't have the mood for blogging

I just wanna put my playlist in imeem, its a DUSUN song actually, by Jestie Alexius..one of the talented Dusun singer from Tambunan..

The title is Tambalut ku

means my friends . . i will upload more songs, and try to upload and translate the lyrics too...

day-out

2008-02-08T00:43:00.002+08:00

DAY-OUT

itz a day out wif my bad cuzzy also my bf, on 5 and 7 and tomorrow to be, juz going out doing some shopping ( she done all the shopping, I just bought some important things..yeah..I'm strictly on budget right noe.. )

Then..juz take a look on the crazee-day-out pictures of us..

~Narcism is on the AiR~
[picturing myself in the toilet on The Gardens, free entry toilet actually, there is a pay toilet on ground floor (if I not mistaken) that cost about RM5]
I wonder what there have in the toilet..??

pictures combine into one

courtesy of beeyhonye.design

passive-hibernating

2008-02-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

I haven't update for few days!!!!
The internet connection is so slow.....thats why i don't blog for few days..

Nothing much ..

2008-02-01T12:49:00.000+08:00

I have been watching UGLY BETTY season 2 on episode 11, 12 and 13 but haven't finish watching yet. If the connection was faster I think I can finish watching it by this night. My cousin come to my place today for a vacation on semester break..hehe, and I was maybe quite busy for these few day working on my thesis, doing some correction like thats....
I am waiting for the latest episode of Naruto shipuuden but its seems that there is no episode for these week. Yeah should be patient for the delay... And the manga full version hasn't been verity yet...mmm
One of naruto character; Jiraiya-Sama, so sad if he really dead..OMG just an anime..there is no need to sad..hahaha

I ' m in d.i.l.e.m.m.a

2008-01-30T21:11:00.001+08:00

dazeree has tagged me on these...I was so boring with the slow of internet connection this few day... I am in dilemma right now......btw the way..just check out on these...

8 things I'm passionate about:
1. going out with my honey
2. eating
3. traveling
4. sleeping
5. money
6. blogging
7. clothes
8. laughing

8 things I say often:

1. iya..?
2. esshh....
3. jelek...
4. mau . . .
5. weeiisshhh . . .
6. aahhh??
7. itu dia . . .
8. makan lagi . . .

8 books I’ve read recently:

This the 8 most recent;

1. Devils Angels
2. Panduan Penulisan Tesis Gaya UKM . .
3. Impak Pembangunan Terhadap Alam Sekitar
4. Ecotourism
5. Ekonomi Alam Sekitar
6. Pengurusan Alam Sekitar di Malaysia
7. Malaysian Journal of Environmental Management
8. Non-fiction book hehehe....

8 things to do before I die:

1. Married - having a pretty gown wedding and garden wedding..hhmmmm
2. Having Child
3. Loving my husband and child
4. loving and care to my family - mom, dad and other relatives - sister, brother, aunt, uncle..etc
5. Travelling all over my favourite places in the world
6. eating all the way while travelling
7. having a house with swimming pool, an luxurious life
8. ask everyone for forgiveness

8 songs I could listen to over and over again:

1. Running ( No Doubt)
2. The APL song(BEP)
3. Sleeping with the light on(Busted)
4. All good things (Nelly Furtado)
5. Dead (MCR)
6. Big Girls don't cry ( Fergie)
7. Can't Take My Eyes Of You (all version)
8. Invincible(Five)

8 things that attract me to my friends:

1. a good listener, but frankly I don't talk much but that doesn't mean I am PENDIAM , just sometimes not in the mood of talking; futhermore the more we talk, the more nonsense talk will it be. .
2. I like to laugh
3. kind
4. don't like to be pretending about things
5. having a lot of crazee idea
6. observant
7. sincere..
8. down to earth

8 things I learn in the last year:

1. Deep Love
2. how to cook some Indonesian food..
3. bravoury
4. Environment
5. Don;t be so foolish
6. Save more money
7. How to enjoy myself
8. trustworthy, faith . .

8 people I want to tag

1. girl called nina
2. girl that born on august
3. Libra girl
4. Aries guy
5. Virgo guy
6. person which has 8 in birth date
7. person that has 4 in her birth date
8. person that will be born on 8.8.08... ( Don't really exist yet)

unTitle by me

2008-01-28T23:37:00.002+08:00

Which Positive Quality Are You? Your Result: Faith You are Faith. Faith is the belief in better things, in spite of the cynicism and doubt that swirls around us. Faith gives us strength; it inpsires us to move forward and follow our hearts. "Faith tells us what the senses do not."
Love
Courage
Charity
Friendship
Peace
Which Positive Quality Are You?

This is the quizzes that I had answer on GoToQuiz
I think the first quiz i did (above) was quite true (^_*), but the second quiz was quite unrelevant i think..hahaha . . I am on the drama nerd type?? To admit it, yes I would like to watch drama..and for acting maybe I also talented (*_^) . . . Haven't involve in any type of acting actually but maybe I can try someday..but I thinks its not the right time for me to learn and done all kind of that things now..

The things that I been always longing to do is taking piano class, yoga class and class of learning to reading other people's mind hahaha ^+^.. bout singing.. my friend and I have been going on a band while secondary school, i still remember singing the acapella version of So much In Love by All4one..hmmm such a memorable friendship back then...but i'm not the lead okay..I don't have that beautiful voices but still I can sing...I admire the voice of Christina Aguilera, Mariah carey...

The internet connection was quite slow, and I been so boring with this slow connection..wth..
I miss home right now...
just sharing some quotation: life was a mess... I guess sometimes life's stresses gets you down

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Drama Nerd You sure do love the spotlight and probably have a very out-going and loud personality. Or not. That's just a stereotype, of course. Participation in the theatre is something to be very proud of. Whether you have a great voice for musicals, or astounding skills for dramas/comedies; keep up the good work. We need more entertainment these days that isn't television and video games (not that these things are bad, necessarily.)
Musician
Science/Math Nerd
Social Nerd
Literature Nerd
Artistic Nerd
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Anime Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quizzes for MySpace

New layout for a new look

2008-01-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

emmm..still look the same??

Actually I just change my layout, the header, which I give names: 570header, I designed myself, and about the layout code, I am inspired by metalic street, but have done some modification as what I'm comfortable with the interface.

I have been designing, debugging and writing the code since 5 pm this evening( Sunday-27 Jan ) and finally finish with the header design on 11 pm today. But I have taking break oso..having tea, eating biscuits.. I am hungry...haven't eating nasi today. . .

570header:

environmentally friendly??

2008-01-24T20:11:00.000+08:00

Take a look on some of this pics.. beautiful wedding gown for a wedding, but

would you believe that this gown was made from toilet tissue?
This a kind of enviro-friendly wears but to think more deeply does it really an environmentally friendly..??

toilet tissue was first used by Chinese in 6th century AD. Then lets see how was the toilet tissue was made of.

Toilet paper is generally made from new or "virgin" paper, using a combination of softwood and hardwood trees. Softwood trees such as Southern pines and Douglas firs have long fibers that wrap around each other; this gives paper strength. Hardwood trees like gum, maple and oak have shorter fibers that make a softer paper. Toilet paper is generally a combination of approximately 70% hardwood and 30% softwood.

Other materials used in manufacture include water, chemicals for breaking down the trees into usable fiber, and bleaches. Companies that make paper from recycled products use oxygen, ozone, sodium hydroxide, or peroxide to whiten the paper. Virgin-paper manufacturers, however, often use chlorine-based bleaches (chlorine dioxide), which have been identified as a threat to the environment.

So people, lets makes some prediction and mind calculation here if we are going to use and wear this "ecofriendly clothes made from toilet tissue", how many percent could it leads us to actually preserve the environment. But this dress of toilet paper will only be used one time then stored in a box. After the wedding, you can feel the dress against your skin daily…. or ’till the toilet paper runs out.

Video of Lovebirds Jennifer Cannon and Doy Nichols from Lexington, Kentucky got married in a New York restroom as part of a publicity stunt for Charmin toilet, tissue. Strangely enough, the event was hosted and paid for by Charmin.

Fringe hairstyle

2008-01-20T02:12:00.000+08:00

Check out on the latest hairstyle nowadays, for women, girls only . .

Hairstyle that popular in Japanese women nowadays

having fringe make a fresher face look

Looking beyond the fringe

Messy fringe but still giving a free a young look

this is kind of dare to try style, A bit funny I think but still looks elegant
I may called it tempurung hairstyle =D

having it for my self

2008-01-16T23:14:00.000+08:00

Been so busy for the past two days, furthermore, I'm just not in the mood for blogging..
Right now I want to focus on finding a suitable job for me..i have sent many resume to many company but so sad there is no reply yet. I have been on interview before with one of the best career place in Malaysia, and luckily I got it..But..I haven't finish my study yet, still have about 5 months to go..Since I'm not available, the interviewer told me to call him after I finish my studying but...I did not call him yet..hehehe

Went for a jog on the evening makes me feel more refreshed than the days before. Hey, I'm doing some research here for a tips for proper running form. A proper running form is important just as the important of having a good body posture.

EyEs

eyes should be focused on the ground. about 10 feet to 20 feet ahead. (30.48 metres - 60.96 metres ahead)

FooT

Land on your mid foot. Land on middle (ball) of the foot, and roll through to the front of the toes.
If you land on your toes, your calves will get tight or fatigue quickly and you may develop shin pain.
If you land on your heels, you may overstrided and may cause in braking, which are wasting energy and may cause injury.

HaNdS

Hands should be kept at waist levels, right about where they might lightly brush your hip. The arms should be 90 degree angle. Sometimes people tend to hold their hands way up by their chest, especially as they get tired. Ironically, you may actually get more tired by holding your arms that way and you'll start to feel tightness and tension in your shoulders and neck. Arms and hands should be relaxed as possible. The trick is gently cup your hands, as if you are holding an egg and you don't want to break it. Don't clench your fists because it can lead to tightness in the arms, shoulders, and neck.

ShOuLdEr

Shoulder should be relaxes and square or facing towards, not hunched over. Rounding the shoulders too far forward tends to tighten the chest and restrict breathing.
Make sure to rotate arm from shoulder, which means the arms should swing back and forth from your shoulder joint, not your elbow joint.
Avoid side-to-side arm swinging. If your arms cross over your chest, you're more likely to slouch, which means you're not breathing efficiently. Imagine a vertical line splitting your body in half -- your hands should not cross it.

BrEaThInG

When we are doing breathing exercise, the best way to breath is inhale from nose and exhale from the mouth. But well, while jogging, its best to breathe in and out through your mouth when you're running. Your muscles need oxygen to keep moving and your nose simply can't deliver enough. Deep belly breathing allows you to take in more air, which can also help prevent side stitches. You should be able to speak in full sentences, without gasping for air. Slow down or walk if you're running out of breath

Discover the truth of weirdness . .

2008-01-14T02:48:00.000+08:00

There are places that have funny names, the elder has their own reason for choosing that name, to a place, take a look at some places that have funny name..

Arsoli (Lazio, Italy)
Bastard (Norway)
Beaver (Oklahoma, USA)
Beaver Head (Idaho, USA)
Brown Willy (Cornwall,UK)
Chinaman's Knob (Australia)
Climax (Colorado, USA)
Cunt (Spain)
Cunter (Switzerland)
Dikshit (India)
Dildo (Newfoundland, Canada)
Dong Rack (Thailand-Cambodia border)
Dongo (Congo - Democratic Republic)
Effin (Limerick, Ireland)
Fuku (Shensi, China)
Fukue (Honshu, Japan)
Fukui (Honshu, Japan)
Fukum (Yemen)
Hold With Hope (Greenland)
Intercourse (Pennsylvania, USA)
Lickey End (West Midlands, UK)
Little Dix Village (West Indies)
Lord Berkeley's Knob (Sutherland, Scotland)
Middle Intercourse Island (Australia)
Muff (Northern Ireland)
Nobber (Donegal, Ireland)
Pis Pis River (Nicaragua)
Sexmoan (Luzon, Philippines)
Seymen (Turkey)
Shafter (California, USA)
Shag Island (Indian Ocean)
Shitlingthorpe (Yorkshire, UK)
Tittybong (Australia)
Tong Fuk (Japan)
Turdo (Romania)
Twatt (Orkney, UK)
Wank (Germany)
Wankendorf (Schleswig-Holstein, Germany)
Wankener (India)
Wankie (Zimbabwe)
Wankie Colliery (Zimbabwe)
Wanks River (Nicaragua)
Wankum (Germany)
Wet Beaver Creek (Australia)

Also in Sabah, we have Menggatal and Menumbok but that names are not funny for us who have been knowing the name since childhood, but hell the fact is that the west (Peninsular Malaysia) always make a laugh of it.

Source: thatsweird.net

Part of the world has sinking?

2008-01-12T19:02:00.001+08:00

I am reading a post by Ah Yap - Sinking of Malaysia and by Davelynne - Sinking of Sabah, and the picture above are from Ah Yap's blog. The pictures above are taken from a hotel in China. It was just unprofessional for a hotel ( I do not know what hotel, and star) to publish such map without the other part of a country. Just as you can see, Borneo, Java, Sulawesi, Philippine ( and many more islands) are not on the map. Its kinda telling the world that the islands that not in the map are not significant places, and not really important places..

Can read the full post of the politician game in Ah Yap's blog (linked above). Politic is a gamble that using a millions life's of people. If the politician taking the wrong card then the world may be in deterioration.

oh..Gwen..[ close up to Gwen Stefani ]

2008-01-11T23:18:00.000+08:00

Ever been inspired by a song that makes you decided the way of your life to reach a successful life? I am been inspired by the song of No Doubt - The Climb.
Apart from that, I like Gwen Stefani, the lead singer of No Doubt. She is very unique, from her voice, style and of course she is beautiful. Here are a Mini Biography of Gwen Stefani

Gwen Renee Stefani was born on October 3, 1969 at St. Jude's Hospital in Fullerton, California. She was one of four children born to Dennis Stefani and Patti Flynn. Her siblings are Eric Stefani, Jill and Todd. She and her brother Eric began the band No Doubt when Gwen was a teenager and she moved from backing vocals to lead singer when their original lead, John Spence, committed suicide. She dated band mate Tony Kanal for eight years, before marrying English rocker Gavin Rossdale on 14 September 2002 in London. She is now stepmother to Gavin's 16-year-old daughter, Daisy Lowe. Gwen and Gavin divide their time equally between homes in Anaheim and London.

Spouse
Gavin Rossdale (14 September 2002 - present) 1 child

Gwen's Trade Mark are:
Red lips and platinum blond hair.
Off-beat, yet fashionable style.

Trivia

Was on her High School swim team.
Lead singer for the band No Doubt.
Met future husband Gavin Rossdale (Bush) in 1996 at a concert she was playing with her band No Doubt.
Inspired by such musicals as The Sound of Music (1965), and Annie (1982).
Has one sister, Jill and two brothers, Eric Stefani and Todd Stefani.
Eric Stefani, her brother, was the keyboardist for No Doubt.
Attended Cal State Fullerton.
Has a her own fashion label named L.A.M.B. which goes on sale in Spring 2004.
According to the April 2004 issue of Vogue, her father Dennis is Italian and her mother Patti is of Irish and Scottish descent.
Was voted one of People magazines 50 Most Beautiful People of 2004.
Arrived an hour late for her wedding.
Many big celebs like Nicky Hilton, Paris Hilton, Carmen Electra, and Halle Berry have been spotted wearing her popular bag, and clothing line titled L.A.M.B.
Shares a birthday with singer Ashlee Simpson and former Mötley Crüe drummer Tommy Lee.
Ranked #22 in Stuff magazine's "102 Sexiest Women in the World" (2002).
Her wedding dress was designed by John Galliano.
Friend and collaborator of rapper Eve.
Named Best Dressed Woman in the May 2005 issue of Harpers & Queen.
Her home was used in a music video for a song from Rufus Wainwright's debut album.
Is a distant cousin of Madonna. Her great-aunt's mother-in-law shares the last name with Madonna.
Had a seven year romantic relationship with No Doubt's bassist, Tony Kanal. Most of the songs on No Doubt's "Tragic Kingdom" CD are about their break-up.
Admits that she only had two boyfriends in her life. One is No Doubt band member Tony Kanal, the other one is her husband Gavin Rossdale. [ Beey Says: It Perfect Gwen!!]
Good friends with Shirley Manson, lead singer of Garbage.
Received two Grammy Awards with No Doubt, for "Best Pop Performance By Duo Or Group With Vocal" in 2002 ("Hey Baby") and 2003 ("Underneath It All").
Received five Grammy Awards nominations as solo artist on 8 December 2005: Best Pop Vocal Album, Best Female Pop Performance, Album Of The Year, Record Of The Year and Best Rap/Sung Collaboration.
Stepmother of Gavin Rossdale's daughter Daisy Lowe (b. 1989).
The vinyl red gown that she wore on the cover of "Tragic Kingdom" was stolen from the Fullerton Museum Centre in Orange County, California on 11th January 2005.
Launched a second fashion line, Harajuku Lovers, inspired by the street fashions of the Harajuku area of Tokyo, Japan. This complements her solo album, Love Angel Music Baby, on which she makes multiple references to Harajuku girls. [ Beey Says: I love Harajuku ]
Is some sort of a fashion icon, because of her unique style, which mixes vintage with designer clothes. [ Beey Says: yeah-agree on this]
Named #30 in FHM's "100 Sexiest Women in the World 2005" special supplement. (2005)
Gwen and her husband, Gavin Rossdale, became the parents of a boy, Kingston James McGregor, on May 26, 2006 in Los Angeles.
Named #40 in FHM magazine's "100 Sexiest Women in the World 2006" supplement (2006).
Mopped the floors of a local Dairy Queen, shortly before joining her brother's band, No Doubt.
Was considered for the role of Jane Smith in Mr. & Mrs. Smith (2005) when Nicole Kidman dropped out of the project.

Personal Quotes

"I think everyone has gifts and everyone has talents. If you are successful at it, it feels really good but it never really penetrates completely. There are moments where I think that we made an amazing record and I'm so proud of it, but I don't wake up and go, "Wow, I'm amazing."

It's always odd to talk about my fashion. It's something you look at-you don't need to talk about it.

I don't know what I'm going to do, but I've always wanted to do the family thing
At a certain point I'm going to want to have a family and I'm not going to have time to be running around the world doing this shit and being greedy. I can always write songs. But can I always wear an Alice-in-Wonderland costume? I probably shouldn't. I can at home. I was thinking that when I have children, that I should always dress as a character for them, so they think their mom is Alice in Wonderland or Cinderella. It would be totally messed up!

As a famous person you think how you're gonna end it, get away and have a normal life. I imagine my children are going to save me from my vanity and be my passion and fill whatever fears I have of the amazing time I'm having right now being gone. I don't want to drop off and not be on the radio or not be able to talk about myself for hours. I don't want it to go away. But at the same time, I never expected to be here in the first place.

I'm really emotional. I don't fight with people - like, I can barely fight with my husband because I'll just start crying instead. I've learnt not to do that.

I've been making a conscious effort not to think about the future. I'm lucky to not have a real job, to be able to express myself, be creative and be relevant. I don't know what I will be doing in 10 years. How old will I be? Forty-five. I don't want to think about it to be honest, because it's a waste of time. Tomorrow night I'll be in bed with my husband again and it will be really great. It's all about right now.
"I'm like a peanut butter sandwich."

"The one thing that makes me feel super lucky about my financial success is that I have a housekeeper."

"My songs are basically my diaries. Some of my best songwriting has come out of time when I've been going through a personal nightmare."

"I really want to take some more time out and be with my husband. I guess what I really want is to have a baby. Life is short and you've got to get the most out of it."

"I'd like to stress that I only have a small role. Oh, who am I kidding? There are no small roles in a Scorsese film" (Regarding her role in The Aviator (2004)).

"For me, acting comes from the same place as performing music. I just have to perform. I wanted to get it right and I did. Sometimes you just have to go for it."

"They are my best friends, so when I told them that I wanted to try something solo they responded in the way that best friends do. It was a matter of timing. We've all been growing up and our priorities have changed. Then I went and got married and my priorities certainly changed." (regarding pursuing a solo music career away from her rock group, No Doubt)

"This album is just about me. Although at times I think there's less of me on this than anything I've done because of all the people involved." (regarding her first solo album, Love Angel Music Baby)
"I imagine having children will save me from my vanity and fill whatever fears I have." [on easing up on her career to consider a family, in Rolling Stone]

"I really don't care what people say. It's not like it discourage me from doing something I want to do".
"One time, a guy said he worked for Hugh Hefner and gave me a card. I thought it was funny."

I have a dream about spending time in my house with my kids. Being a mom was all I ever dreamed about. Now that it's come true it makes me feel like my life has come together. Nothing else matters.

Beey Says: View some of Gwen Pics

This one more resembles to Marylin Monroe.Gwen is says one of the celebrity that best embodies Marilyn's alluring persona.

This picture more to resembles to Pink. They have the same shape of face.

On Gwen's wedding with Gavin. Gavin is a handsome..guy afterall...

Mini Biography By: Calliope ( http://www.imdb.com/)

I love naruto..(Anime-Widget)..

2008-01-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

I discover a new site, Anime-widget a blog that provide anime character widget such as naruto character, bleach, prince of tennis and so on. This blog offer widget such as flash clock, countdown clock, desktop icon, games and many more. I am thinking of a countdown clock widget to my birthday, hmm,,hmm..my birthday is also my relationship anniversary..

The widget was built using flash I think, and its kinda cute.....very cute. Well I love naruto most compare to other anime. There is an example of clock widget I use from anime-widget in my blog. ( you can see on the column below my profile). It cute isn't it??

This site awesome for the anime lover who want to put all the anime character in their website, blog or friendster and so on. A highly reccomended site for anime widget.

Drop A visit to Anime-Widget for a cute and fun, inspiring anime character widget.

Back to normal again..

2008-01-08T00:56:00.000+08:00

My blogspot has back to normal again. I think the reason my blog has been weird a few days was because I am advertising an advertise from advertlets. It just my speculation actually. Because, there is other blogger that have the same problem, and as long as I remembered, the other bloggers also advertising the same ads. But afterall, my blog has become normal again..

About the advertlets, I found out from another blog that the advertlets domains has expired on 4th of january , and the things is thar the web team did not bother to check the situation. Just forget about all the ads world. Check out what other people has thinking for securities nowadays, even selipar jipun has to be locked for the reason to avoid from being taken by irresponsible other.

The picture above I received in my email from my friend, gutty.
This is -

Petua elak hilang selipar semasa solat Jumaat

Just for some salingan.

2008

2008-01-02T20:44:00.000+08:00

year 2007 has ended, here comes 2008. Leaving 2007 with so many laugh, tears, sadness, happiness, love, and fall n rise.

we always hoping something may different in the new year. New year, new determination, new aim. Hoping something will change but do we really prepared to changed the way we think? may be we are willing to change the way we work, but why have the changing determination on new year. If we really wanna changed, to be different than before, we may changed anytime, we may changed at that moment..
Why do have to wait for new year? because it sounds practical,??

Running in the new year

2008-01-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me
Im the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
Im so sorry that Im falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Dont let me fall out of love

Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope you make it
(do you think well make it? )
Were running
Keep holding my hand
Its so we dont get separated

Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Dont stop inspiring me
Sometimes its hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Dont make me want to give up

(the future)

Click - klik

2007-12-30T17:40:00.001+08:00

feeling deprorable song

2007-12-27T02:29:00.001+08:00

I just want to hear this song at this moment...

Damn slander

2007-12-27T01:50:00.000+08:00

Its been a week since I put my last post. At first the internet connection become slower and I couldn't even connect to the server. Well I do not know the cause for it.but..Just forget about it. I am feeling kind of deplorable at this moment. There are people done some bad thing about me, doing something using my name and my bf. Slandering me. What the hell is that 'person' really intended to do. It bullshit! Bladispulpark! I don't want to do any suspicion even thought my instinct keep telling me, keep me thinking about the 'person' that is likely to be behind this all.

I don't want to hate people, and if someone there hating me, don't like me..I don't give a damn about it as long they don't disturbed my life, my happiness, my circle and soo on. But this one is really irritating. DAMN!!!

People are just pathetic. Really pathetic. Sometimes its really important to have a not 100% faith on others. Putting such a high value of faith on others may just hurt you someday. People learn through their true experience. I learn through my 23 years old experience, observant and I just cannot really going to accept this kind of slander, defamation and so on. God bless the truth. The truth is out there. But will the truth reveals by it self?

Healthy Diet

2007-12-17T17:21:00.000+08:00

As I browsing to look information on traditional tips on healthy food, I found something about pineapples. I discover interesting fact about what pineapple and found out some myth about pineapple aren't just true.

1 . Pineapple can lead to abortion - ( )

Actually there isn't a detailed research on this but pineapple actually has a great amount of vitamin C and its good for pregnancy. But it is recommended for the pregnant women to avoid eating the immature pineapple because it may lead to abortion.

2. Pineapple can reduce weight - ( wwwooooww)

How? I do know actually but this is the tips on reducing weight using pineapples juice:

Prepare a pineapple
cut and blend it to make a pineapple juice (a)
filter the (a) so that you can get the juice only
Drink it all
It is recommended to do this twice a day

3. Constipation

For constipation, pineapple juice can reduce constipation.

prepare an immature pineapple
peel the pineapple and wash clean
blend it to get the juice
Drink it twice after meals (1/2 glass each)

I say: The old folks has make many discovery long time ago. Just imagine at that time, there is no doctor for them to go, they just depending on the traditional, the natural food, plant and fruit to cure the illness that come. We who live in the modern living nowadays should practice the old folks tips to have a healthy diet and life. Its good to back to basic. Prevention is better than medication.

Putting the new hit counter

2007-12-13T03:12:00.000+08:00

All I wanna say here is I am being homealone...
Really hate it to be like that but I think that how world is going on..
When I woke up tommorow, its just another new day in 365 days..

So the thing I am gonna write is that I am putting a new hit counter on my blog..
so don't think that I just kinda started my blog you there...

I have been watching a series of HEROES, the complete first seasons. The truth is i just started watching it yesterday, and I barely finish watching all of them just now (about 3 a.m in the morning). It consist of seven DVD. I just feeling curious about the next story while watching it and right now I am too curious to know about the second season.

You sure always been aware of this fact, but have you really try this ?

2007-12-11T01:44:00.001+08:00

Thanks for an email from my friend Gutty on Turn Off Your Handphone at Gas Stations. This email i think really useful for all of us for being more aware about our safety while using phone while in filling station.

First :

Let's try..

The cards strip are ready..then

put the cooking foil

put the petrol..make sure its a petrol since we doing this experiment regarding filling station

Use your phone..

then...

More calls...

...

What you see Is something true..

I Say: People just not aware if they doesn't really experiencing it right..

The story about monday

2007-12-09T16:45:00.000+08:00

Ever thinking about how come a week is consist of 7 days?

Practical geometrical theories:

If you wrap a rubber band around 7 soda cans (or any other convenient circular objects). You get a perfect hexagon with the 7th can in the middle. It is the only stable configuration of wrapping more than 3 circular objects. Four, 5, and 6 objects will slip from one configuration to another. Ancients wrapping tent poles, small logs for firewood, or other ciruclar objects might have come upon this number and attach a mystical significance to it.

One viable theory correlates the seven day week to the seven (astrological) "planets" known to the ancients: Sun, Moon, Mars, Mercury, Jupiter, Venus, and Saturn.

The number seven does not seem an obvious choice to match lunar or solar periods, however.

A solar year could be more evenly divided into weeks of 5 days, and the moon phases five-day and six-day weeks make a better short term fit (6 times 5 is 30) to the lunar (synodic) month (of about 29.53 days) than the current week (4 times 7 is 28).

The seven-day week may have been chosen because its length approximates one moon phase (one quarter = 29.53 / 4 = 7.3825).

Ever thinking if there is another system that different with our 7 days a week?

Try to think of this:
If you define a "week" as a 7-day period, obviously the answer is no. But if you define a "week" as a named interval that is greater than a day and smaller than a month, the answer is yes.

Do you know ancient Egyptians used a 10-day "week".
And Maya calendar uses a 13 and a 20-day "week".

There is a story about monday, the words monday gets it names from the Moon, which in turn gets its name from Mani (Old English Mona), the Germanic Moon god (Wikipedia).
Similarly, the names in Latin-based languages such as the Italian name (Lunedi), the French name (lundi), the Spanish name (Lunes), and the Romanian name (Luni) come from the Latin name for Moon, luna. The Russian word, eschewing pagan names, is понедельник (poniediélnik), meaning "after Sunday." In most of the Indian Languages, the word for Monday is Somvar, with Soma being the Sanskrit name for the moon. The Japanese word for Monday is getsuyōbi (月曜日) which means day of the moon.

Monday is held to be the first day of the week. This is the case in most of Europe, parts of Africa, South America and Australia. In Asia – because the western calendar system was introduced only during the 20th century – many languages refer to Monday as the "day of the beginning". For example, Monday is xingqi yi in Chinese, meaning day one of the week. The international standard, ISO 8601, defines Monday as the first day of the week.

But according to the Judeo-Christian count, Monday is the second day, the first being Sunday. This is also the standard format in Canada and the United States. Its name in Arabic, Armenian, Georgian, Greek, Hebrew, Persian, Portuguese and Syriac means "second day". Quakers also traditionally refer to Monday as "Second Day" eschewing the pagan origin of the English name "Monday". For similar reasons the official liturgical calendar of the Roman Catholic Church refers to Monday as "Feria II". (The Portuguese name for Monday reflects this, as do all the days' names except Saturday and Sunday: the Portuguese word for Monday is segunda-feira.)
In some state in Malaysia (Kelantan) also make monday as the second day in a week, so sunday is their first day in a week.

Modern culture usually looks at Monday as the beginning of the workweek, as it is typically Monday when adults go back to work and children back to school after the weekend. Thus, Mondays are often seen as a misfortune. In Middle Eastern countries, however, the beginning of the workweek is usually Saturday (Thursday and Friday are observed as the weekend). In Israel, Sunday is the first day of the workweek. Friday is half a work day and Friday night and Saturday are the Sabbath.

In the folk rhyme, "Monday's child is fair of face".

It is Monday when commodity markets add or subtract weather premium, hence the nickname Weather Market Monday.

In Thailand, the color associated with Monday is yellow.
Why people always hate Monday?

I say: because it is first week in their country where the first week to work/ go to school / attending classes../ or what so ever, where their weekend haven't been enough breaks for them..

Give and Take - Yoga Journal Newsletter

2007-12-08T01:31:00.000+08:00

Give and Take

In one sense, generosity is natural: We can no more help giving than we can live without the support of everything we receive. Verses in the Vedas describe the generosity of the natural elements, the way the earth supports us without ever demanding thanks, the way the sun shines and the rain falls.

But if our essence is naturally generous, the ego fears not having enough, worries about getting hurt or losing out, feels anxious at the thought of looking silly or getting ripped off, and, above all, looks for a payoff. So for most of us, there's a continual push-pull that pits our natural generosity and genuine desire to share against the ego's feeling of lack and its desire to drive a bargain.

Use your daily meditation, or just put aside a few minutes every day, to practice offering blessings or prayers for another's welfare. Then mentally touch each person with your awareness and ask that he or she be blessed. As you do this, also observe your own state. Notice whether reluctance or smugness arises. If so, don't judge yourself; simply see whether you can hold these feelings in awareness. Often, that awareness will allow them to change.

If you common with yoga try to do this every morning, after you wake up, take time to sit in a proper posture, breathe, let the oxygen run through your whole body.

Think about generousity, think positive and try to throw all the negative or bad thought of your mind. Yoga is not only about being physically health but for a mentally and purist inner self.

- -

Reposting the : You are true Sabahan when...

2007-12-06T02:13:00.000+08:00

I receive this email long time ago...



Subject:	Fw: You are a true Sabahan when......
Date:	Fri, 24 Feb 2006 11:04:33 +0800

from my ex-officer while doing internship / industrial training while undergraduate..
Even I have posted in
but since the bulletin in friendster only allow for 1000 word then it shouldn't be these complete..

You are a true Sabahan when...

1) You drive at right lane of the road, with a speed of only 50 KM/H. If people horn behind you, you still don't know what's wrong.

2) You have the luxury of working from 8 AM to 5 PM (get off work punctually).

3) You don't believe that there is any "clean" politician in Sabah.

4) You feel "obligated" to reach the top of Mount Kinabalu at least once in a lifetime.

5) You prefer a big car than a big house (probably you can't drive a big house around to show off).

6) You wear slipper and short wherever you go, even in city.

7) You still think that Labuan belongs to Sabah.

8) You will not go to any FREE seminar / function that has no food or refreshment.

9) You don't care about service. You just want things cheap, cheap, cheap.

10) You know where to get your candles and torch light quickly in the total darkness (due to training by frequent blackout).

11) You know what "aramaitiee" means...

12) You shout "referee bodoh" and at the same time throw mineral water bottles on the pitch during a football match at Likas Stadium..

13) Your Timorese maid ran away with her lover, taking your money or jewellery along..

14) You doubt someone's mykad whether it is real or fake..

15) Your favorite assemblyman whom you vote and supported all this while...gambled away and lost a whopping 60 million ringgit in a London
casino..

16) You go inside a karaoke at 12 pm and realise that the place is still open at 5 am...

17) You come across a supposedly local person but with a very foreign accent..

18) You cannot vote in an election because someone has voted on behalf of you...

19) You own a bakakuk

Tambah.... you are a Sabahan if u say and understand these words....

1. tuuuna/ saaaana - points with the lips - (there-- at a distance)(the longer the 'tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuna / saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaana' the further the place is.)

2. limpas (to pass/walk by - Maaf, saya > limpas dulu? Excuse me, can I passby?

3. palui (stupid, duh! )

4. tapuk (to hide )

5. bida (ugly)

6. bubut (as in proper malay- "kejar", to chase)

7. sakai (ignorant, uncivilized, "hoosier")

8. andang-andang (that's how it is)

9. sapak (kasi campur/gaul --utk masakan-to mix as in cooking)

10. inda/tia (short form of "tidak" - not, no)

11. wicin (another brand of msg as in "aji-no- moto" - a seasoning or food enhancer)

12. talampau (proper malay - "terlampau"- too much)

13. takajut (proper malay - "terkejut" - shocked, startled)

14. siorang (proper malay -"kami"/ "saya-orang" - us, we)

15. ngam-ngam (proper malay "kebetulan" - exact, at that time)

16. mangkali (proper malay "barangkali" - maybe, perhaps)

17. kamarin (proper malay "kelmarin" - yesterday)

18. kanapa (proper malay "kenapa" - why)

19. gia (__expression - "is it?")

20. bah (__expression - "ok!")

21. ah? (question, "Apa?" What?)

22. kici/kicil (proper malay "kecil" - small)

23. basar (proper malay "besar" - big, huge)

24. siok (__expression/description, proper malay "seronok" - enjoyable, great, etc-)

25. urang ("orang" - people; sometimes used "diurang" - them, they)

26. karing ("kering" - dry)

27. umban ("humban, lempar" - throw)

28. kana ("kena"- got ie--"kena umban" --got thrown)

29. padih ("pedih" - as in "Mata saya padih/pedih!" - My eyes stings, painful)

30. numbur ("nombor" - number)

31. gali ("geli" as in squeemish about something, or "gali"--gali lubang - as in Dig a hole.)

32. dorang ("dia orang/diurang" - them, they - Dorang pigi tamu. They went to the market.)

33. panat ("penat" - tired)

34. katawa ("ketawa" - laugh, laughing)

35. lanjang (a.k.a. "periuk /belanga " - pots/pans)

36. putung ("potong" - cut, slice)

37. Buduh ("bodoh" - stupid)

38. tongo/bongo ("stupido" - same as above )

39. kabaru-baruan ("kebaru-baruan"- new to something)

40. giuk (proper malay "ulat"- worm)

41. Sikui (Tembikai - watermelon)

42. Santut (Underwear)

43. celana/salana (Seluar)

44. gipit/gapit (to grip...)

45. kanapatan/kadapatan (caught red handed.. or as the malays in kl say..'kantoi')

46. kebangkalan (choked while eating..proper malay = 'tersedak')

47. ketulahan (bad karma)

48. bahai (plastic bag)

49. uinnaaa! (used to express various feelings, mostly when surprised..)

50. ging (derived from the word gang.. means kawan/member)

51. Tontolou = Uncle Johnny

52. Pantat = Butt<---tp di semenanjung,lain tuh kan? eee... ya ba pula.. Di sabah .. belakang ..tapi di semenanjung di Depan pulak .. silap .. LOL( for the west Malaysian, they hv different mean dis..). whhheeccck

53. Cula = Coke or Coca-cola...lol

54 Torrrrrbaik = The Best...lol

55. Bikin panas = feeling angry...HHAH - HOt kununlah..True to my roots.. I have one to contribute

56. Tambirang = Don't lie.. (eg. Jangan kau tembirang)

57. Sabak ---- means baru ko tau... in english = I TOLD U...

58. Kotoh ---- Means as same like Sabak...

59. Lakas = Lekas/Cepat (Faster)

60. Bobot/toto/tonton = Vagina *depends on location-different location different slang

61. Balabak = Scrotum

62. Kalatiak = Ketiak (Armpit)

63. Duiiii dogo! = My goodness!! / Oh my!!

64. Seluar Katak - underwear

65. siring siring - side / on the side

66. taapun - a phrase used when unable to get the things desired

67. palis palis - touch wood

68 tachut - our version of touch wood

69. gostan - reverse

70. gohed - forward

71. ayuk - swinging movement of the arm in the marble game. can also mean to masturbate

72. taiih - shit / feaces / or just a curse word

73. kogutan - hangover

74. Sepuluh Tiga (10-3) - RM10 for three cans of beer (well in those days lah)

75. mulau - crazy

76. takana - hit (BM is terkena)

77. tekuis - same like like takana

78. kapayas / tapayas - papaya

79. api api - kota kinabalu

80 (sia) bilang - said

81. skijap - soon / in a short while / later

82. tinguk - (tengok) to look

83. hari satu - monday

84. hari dua - tuesday

85. hari tiga - wednesday

86. hari ampat - thursday

87. hari lima - friday

88. hari anam - saturday

89. SOT - crazy

90. thai lingong - worse than buduh

91. karan - electricity

92. butul - in BM 'betul'

- a true Sabahan

- - - - -
I say..: 6) - Not really, but I admit this are the most comfortable thins to wear and I occasionally wear it..

14) - for the non-bumiputra only..but sometimes even the bumiputra also don't have IC because their parent don't registered their birth since born then it must have been difficult for them to apply for IC. If they were going to apply..there are so many procedure they have to done..

17) -this were so common

19) - once my family own but my drunk cousin unintended throw it in deep shrubs..idiot drunker..

who know what atukkoi resembles??

For a friend.....

2007-12-03T16:14:00.000+08:00

I have a friend here, she has a huge interest towards Indonesian songs..hehe..actually she is my housemate once. Back then she back home to Sabah and she still text me sometimes asking me not to forget bringing her any new movir or new songs from indonesian group, singer n so on .....

here i decided to upload some new songs that I think maybe she still don't have the mp3 songs yet...

psss/t :: Beba..cuba klik aja n save as..!!

GANTUNG: http://files-upload.com/files/656223/01. GANTUNG.mp3
SALAH by Lobow
MUNAJAT - Ahmad Dhani & The Rock
BUKAN BINTANG BIASA
Letto- Sebelum cahaya

just hit me back if u want more...ok beba..!!

fooling around...I am not that kind of...

2007-11-30T18:12:00.000+08:00

See How Much You’re Really Worth! -
This is pretty fun :)

Natural Hair Color:
[ ] Brown - $100
[ ] Blonde - $50
[x] Black - $15
[ ] Bald - $5
[ ] Other-$75

Total: 15

Eye Color:
[x] Brown - $50
[ ] Green - $75
[ ] Blue $150
[ ] Hazel $100
[ ] Other - $15

Total so far: 65

Height:[ ] Over 7′ - $200
[ ] 6′8″ to 7′ - $175
[ ] 6′0″ to 6′7″ - $150
[ ] 5′5″ to 5′11″ - $75
[ ] 5′4″ to 5′10″ - $85
[x] Under 5′4 - $95

Total so far: 160

Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $175
[ ] 46 to 50 - $150
[ ] 41 to 45 - $125
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[x] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[ ] 0 to 18 - $100

Total so far: 210

Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $750
[ ] First Born - $320
[ ] Only Child - $250
[ ] second born - $150
[ ] Middle child - $100
[x] Last Born - $100
[ ] third born - $550
[ ] fourth born - $300
[ ] fifth born - $400
[ ] sixth born -$215

Total so far: 310

Drink?
[x] I did like once - $400
[ ] Only Holidays - $250
[ ] Sometimes - $215
[ ] YES - $200
[ ] only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle -
$Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[ ] No - $600

Total so far: 710

Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $400
[x] need or have glasses/ contacts but dont wear them $200
[ ] No correction $100
[ ] Glasses $50
[ ] contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction -$100

Total so far: 910

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $250
[ ] 11 to 12 - $400
[ ] 7 to 10 - $500
[x] Under 7- $450

Total so far: 1360

Favorite Colors (two):
[ ] Green-$750
[ ] Red - $600
[ ] Black - $100
[ ] Yellow -$475
[ ] Brown - $300
[ ] Purple - $225
[x] White - $400
[ ] Aqua - $350
[ ] Orange - $300
[x] Blue - $300
[ ] Pink - $100
[ ] Others - $500

Total: 2060

Did you use a calculator to add it all
up?
[ ] Yes $0
[x] Nope-add $1000
[ ] some- $750

Final Total: 3060

REPOST WITH TITLE:
“I cost $ — a night

hahaha......
try it on..!!

http://www.inminds.co.uk

2007-11-25T00:54:00.001+08:00

refilling time

2007-11-22T22:31:00.000+08:00

1.The song you've been most
singing to yourself recently?
:: Munajat - The Rock feat Ahmad Dhani

2. What do you currently want right
now?
:: many....!! the most is finishing and completing and submit my thesis....!!

3. What did you do today?
:: important things..

4. What makes you happy?
:: family and friends, love, God

5. What have you been thinking about
most today?
:: thesis!! money..debts!!!!!

6. Do you ever just sit outside and
watch the stars?
:: yes..if I can but must be at the desired scene...

7. What is your current annoyance?
:: itik!!

8. Do you want a new cell phone?
:: dun hv any intention right now

9. Are you waiting for someone right
now?
:: mmmmmm....nope

10 . Name one thing you're looking
forward to this week.
:: fieldwork!

1 1. Can you make new friends easily?
:: I dunno...ask my fans..**hehe

12. What would you do if your friend
turned gay?
:: shocked if in the before situation he doesn't like to be..

13. Do you plan out what you wear the
day before you wear it?
:: sometimes..but I keep it on mind only loooo

14 . Does everything you want, you get?
:: not at all..**sigh

15 . Have you ever fell for your
best friend?
:: oo..never

16. If you had a chance to save someone
significant to you, would you?
:: i wish i could..

17. How many times do you eat each
day?
:: 2 times..

18. How do you cheer someone up?
:: depends on them..doing things that can makes them smile!!

19 . Are you a morning person?
:: hehe..maybe yes, maybe not

20 . Is it easier for you to fall
asleep or to be woken?
:: both..but actually it depends on situation

21. Think of one person, stick with
it. You don't have to say their name.
:: so what this mean?

22 . Would you pick them up alone 100
plus miles away if it was your
birthday?
:: hah..**??

2 2 . Has your best friend ever hurt
your feelings?
:: there's a time it happened but just let it go...

Some political issue..

2007-11-16T11:14:00.000+08:00

I receive a message in my friendster
about the cartoonist whom publish a cartoon about the Prophet Muhammad. Those are the message:

" Berita nih mengenai kartunis yg lukis karikatur Rasulullah kita yg tercinta..Tlg sebar2kan kpd sumer yg beragama Islam mahupun bkan..The artist who drew the pictures of theProphet Mohammed (S.A.W) has died in afire. He was burned alive. Denmark government is hiding the news from the public and everyone has to know. Plzs spread this.... (Its the price one must pay 4 the insult of Allah's Prophet)Forward this to as many people as you can..."

Actually I don't know the truth of the story but I am interested to do some revision upon this story so this is what I'm gonna jotted down here...

PROLOGUE

The Jyllands-Posten Muhammad cartoons controversy began after twelve editorial cartoons, most of which depicted the Islamic prophet Muhammad, were published in the Danish newspaper Jyllands-Posten on 30 September 2005. The newspaper announced that this publication was an attempt to contribute to the debate regarding criticism of Islam and self-censorship.

Danish Muslim organizations, who objected to the depictions, responded by holding public protests attempting to raise awareness of Jyllands-Posten's publication. The controversy deepened when further examples of the cartoons were reprinted in newspapers in more than fifty other countries.

This led to protests across the Muslim world, some of which escalated into violence with police firing on the crowds (resulting in more than 100 deaths, altogether), including setting fire to the Norwegian and Danish Embassies in Syria, storming European buildings, and desecrating the and flags in Gaza City. While a number of Muslim leaders called for protesters to remain peaceful, other Muslim leaders across the globe, including Mahmoud al-Zahar of Hamas, issued death threats. Various groups, primarily in the Western world, responded by endorsing the Danish policies, including "Buy Danish" campaigns and other displays of support for free speech in Denmark.

Some critics of the cartoons described them as Islamophobic or racist, and argued that they are blasphemous to people of the Muslim faith, are intended to humiliate a Danish minority, or are a manifestation of ignorance about the history of Western imperialism. The imperialism referred to dates from colonialism to the current conflicts in the Middle East.

Supporters have said that the cartoons illustrated an important issue in a period of Islamist terrorism and that their publication is a legitimate exercise of the right of free speech. They also claim that similar cartoons about other are frequently printed, arguing that the followers of Islam were not targeted in a discriminatory way.

Danish Prime Minister Anders Fogh Rasmussen described the controversy as Denmark international crisis World War II.

Some of the cartoon can be view here.

THE STORY:

September 17, 2005:

The Danish newspaper Politiken ran an article under the headline "Dyb angst for kritik af islam" ("Profound fear of criticism of Islam"). The article discussed the difficulty encountered by the writer Kåre Bluitgen, who was initially unable to find an illustrator who was prepared to work with Bluitgen on his children's book Koranen og profeten Muhammeds liv (English: The Qur'an and the life of the Prophet Muhammad ISBN 87-638-0049-7). Three artists declined Bluitgen's proposal before one agreed to assist anonymously. According to Bluitgen:

"One [artist declined], with reference to the murder in Amsterdam of the film director Theo van Gogh, while another [declined, citing the attack on] the lecturer at the Carsten Niebuhr Institute in Copenhagen.

OCTOBER 2004:

A lecturer at the Niebuhr institute at the University of Copenhagen had been assaulted by five assailants who opposed his reading of the Qur'an to non-Muslims during a lecture.
The refusal of the first three artists to participate was seen as evidence of self-censor ism and led to much debate in Denmark, with other examples for similar reasons soon emerging. Comedian Frank Hvam declared that he would (hypothetically) dare to urinate on the Bible on television, but not on the Qur'an. The translators of an essay collection critical of Islam also wished to remain anonymous due to concerns about violent reprisals

30 SEPTEMBER 2005:

The Jyllands-Posten published an article entitled "Muhammeds ansigt" ("The face of Muhammad"). The article consisted of twelve cartoons (of which only some depicted Muhammad) and an explanatory text, in which Flemming Rose, Jyllands-Posten's culture editor, commented:

""The modern, secular society is rejected by some Muslims. They demand a special position, insisting on special consideration of their own religious feelings. It is incompatible with contemporary democracy and freedom of speech, where you must be ready to put up with insults, mockery and ridicule. It is certainly not always attractive and nice to look at, and it does not mean that religious feelings should be made fun of at any price, but that is of minor importance in the present context. [...] we are on our way to a slippery slope where no-one can tell how the self-censorship will end. That is why Morgenavisen Jyllands-Posten has invited members of the Danish editorial cartoonists union to draw Muhammad as they see him.""

After the invitation from Jyllands-Posten to around forty different artists to give their interpretation of Muhammad, twelve caricaturists chose to respond with a drawing each. Many also commented on the surrounding self-censorship debate. Three of these twelve cartoons were illustrated by Jyllands-Posten's own staff, including the "bomb" and "niqabs" cartoons.

In October 2005, the Danish daily Politiken polled thirty-one of the forty-three members of the Danish cartoonist association. Twenty-three said they would be willing to draw Muhammad. One had doubts, one would not be willing because of fear of possible reprisals and six cartoonists would not be willing because they respected the Muslim ban on depicting the prophet.

MUSLIMS RESPONSE:

Even though I am not a radical Muslim, but I am shocked to hear this, and this is an insult to ISLAM. Lets see what the response from the Muslim worldwide....

A consumer boycott was organised in Saudi Arabia, Kuwait, and other Middle East countries. For weeks, numerous notable demonstrations and other protests against the cartoons took place worldwide. Rumours spread via SMS and word-of-mouth. On February 4, 2006, the Danish and Norwegian embassies in Syria were set ablaze, though with no injuries. In Beirut, the Danish Embassy was set on fire, leaving one protester dead. Altogether, at least 139 people were killed in protests (by police firing on the crowds), mainly in Nigeria, Libya, Pakistan and Afghanistan.

Several death threats and reward offers for killing those responsible for the cartoons have been made, resulting in the cartoonists going into hiding. Four ministers have resigned amidst the controversy, among them Roberto Calderoli and Laila Freivalds. In India, Haji Yaqoob Qureishi, a minister in Uttar Pradesh state government announced in February 2006 a cash reward of Rs 51 crore (roughly about US$11 million) for anyone who beheads 'the Danish cartoonist' who caricatured Prophet Mohammad. Subsequently, a case was filed against the minister in the Lucknow district court in Uttar Pradesh and demands were made for the sacking of the minister by eminent Muslim scholars in New Delhi. Condoleezza Rice, Secretary of State of the United States of America has accused Iran and Syria of organizing many of the recent protests in Iran, Syria and Lebanon.

The Western media dubbed the series of demonstrations organized in February 2006 by certain Middle Eastern governments and radical clerics as the "Cartoon Intifada".

On September 9, 2006, it was announced that the Muslim boycott of Danish goods had reduced global exports by 15.5%, which was contributed to by a decline of Middle East exports by approximately 50%, costing about €134 million. However, the Guardian newspaper in the UK also reported, "While Danish milk products were dumped in the Middle East, fervent rightwing Americans started buying Bang & Olufsen stereos and Lego. In the first quarter of this year Denmark’s exports to the US soared 17%."

A Muslim Cleric, Omar Bakri Mohammed, was banned from Britain for his radical views, has called for capital punishment for cartoonists who dare depict the Prophet Muhammad.
Omar Bakri Mohammed then says upon this ban..

"We are not saying ourselves to go there and start to look to him and kill him, we are not talking about that. We are talking about Islamic rules. If anybody insults the prophet, he will have to take a punishment,"

After all I believe that some of the cartoonist was actually burnt..Actually I am not being radical here but as human being we should respect others belief, their prohibition on their religions. It is clear that Muslim forbids any pictorial representation of Prophet Muhammad, then the others as a civilized people should understand that and RESPECT it. This is how civilization going on......

wish I could- 3.a.m

2007-11-15T03:30:00.000+08:00

3.32 a.m - Written post

:: I am a lil bit busy this week and next week..
I really wish to post blog as to update it everyday but ideas just dont come in a flash and I am so busy doing some assignment..

3.34 a.m - Many thing happened

:: There are many things happened this week. And i want to jot it down here but just when I started to think to post something here, the assignment..assignment comes to my mind..heeeeeeee

3.36 a.m - I want to get sleep...

Girl..don't be that mad-hot...

2007-11-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

Dan Band - Aku Bukan Musuhmu

marahmu yg kian menjadi

membuatku tak mengerti

nadamu yg terus meninggi

penuh dng emosi

* mungkin saja aku yg salah

yg selalu memanjakanmu

dan seringnya aku mengalah

menuruti semua inginmu

reff: andai kau bisa pahami dirimu

menghargai aku sedikit saja

karena aku bukanlah musuhmu

aku kekasihmu

repeat *

repeat reff

marahmu yg kian menjadi

membuatku tak mengerti

Sumber: LirikLaguIndonesia.Net

Yes!

2007-11-03T01:49:00.000+08:00

I'm trying to do my own template, and there it goes..

MY ALL NEW BLOG TEMPLATE..

hehe, it almost 2 a.m now..

Does handwriting really says about our true self..??

2007-11-02T21:58:00.000+08:00

So far I believe that handwriting does presenting our true self..
haha, hey there friends..why don't you try it too...

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress.

You are very extroverted and outgoing. You are loving, friendly, and supportive. However, you are also manipulative and controlling at times.

You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others.

You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well.

You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.

You are a good communicator. You work hard to get your ideas across effectively.

What Does Your Handwriting Say About You?

I'm that kind..huhu

2007-11-02T17:13:00.000+08:00

Its true fergie..big girls don't cry!

2007-11-01T17:43:00.000+08:00

Big Girls Don't Cry (Personal)

I need some shelter of my own protection baby
Be with myself in center, clarity, peace, serenity
It's personal, myself and I
We got some straightening out to do
And not gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've gotta get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry Don't cry, Dont cry, Dont cry
The path that I'm walking,
I must go alone I must take the baby steps til I'm full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending do they
And I forseek the dark ahead if I stay
Like a little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend
And you'll be my valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
Cuz I wanna hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center, clarity, peace, serenity

..Fergie has sang this song very good, why I like this song is because - when i search songs on www.seekasong.com, the titles interested me - I have always been crying sometimes, then when I re-think again I already a twenty-years-girl now, I've grown to be a big girls...

- I like the phrase

" The path that I'm walking,
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps til I'm full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending do they"

since child we have been teach to listen to a fairy tales that really doesn't exist..I admit myself always thinking and hoping to have a better and happy ending but sometimes things just don't go right. What I have now is all from God and in anytime He will take it all, or He will give all to me..He Knows everything..

- I want to keep in my mind, my body, my pulse, and I want to tell to myself;

"It's time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry Don't cry, Dont cry, Dont cry"

if anything happened, if anything bother me, if there is anything that makes me feel hard, I someone makes me hurt.. keep in center, clarity, peace, serenity..

Taking Break !!

2007-10-29T16:23:00.000+08:00

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors
open or closed?
close, sometimes open..

2. Do you take the shampoos and
conditioner bottles from hotel?
depends if its something nice i think..haha..bad habit nii...but we already pay to use it ba..

3. Do you sleep with your sheets
tucked in or out?
tuck in..

4. Have you ever stolen a street sign
before?
oh..i never do that..

5. Do you like to use post-it notes?
huh..??

6. Do you cut out coupons but then
never use them?
I don't cut it because i hardly will use them..

7. Would you rather be attacked by a
big bear or a swarm of a bees?
other choice??

8 . Do you have freckles?
no

9. Do you always smile for pictures?
depends on the narcism mode..hehe

10. What is your biggest pet peeve?
cat..

11. Do you ever count your steps when
you walk?
hohoho..I'll try someday..

12. Have you ever peed in the woods?
mm..as long as I remembered it never happened..

13. What about pooped in the woods?
oi..hahaha

14. Do you ever dance even if there's
no music playing?
yes..but it depends on mood

15. Do you chew your pens and pencils?
nope..

16. How many people have you slept
with this week?
with my sister and my nephew

17. What size is your bed?
single, but queen at home

18. What is your Song of the week?
mm..haven't decided yet..

19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
depends..but I don't think I like it

20. Do you still watch cartoons?
yeah..why not..

21. Whats your least favorite movie?
---

22. Where would you bury hidden
treasure if you had some?
a very unsuspectingly place

23. What do you drink with dinner?
air kosong

24. What do you dip a chicken nugget
in?
sos cili

25. What is your favorite food?
all the hot-spicy food

26. What movies could you watch over
and over and still love?
my sassy girl film

27. Last person you kissed/kissed you?
=)

2 8. Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
yes..a girl scout

29. Would you ever strip or pose nude
in a magazine?
in an if situation..

30. When was the last time you wrote a
letter to someone on paper?
long time ago may be..

31. Can you change the oil on a car?
can't

32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
speedtrap u mean?

34. Favorite kind of sandwich?
choclate

35 Best thing to eat for breakfast?
I prefer biscuit, bread or nasi with lauk n drink hot coffee/tea/Milo

36. What is your usual bedtime?
its never been usual..

37. Are you lazy?
yes..but sometimes I think I am the most hardworking girl...haha

38. When you were a kid, did you dress
up for Halloween?
never celebrate it

39. What is your Chinese astrological
sign ?
I was born on year of mice

40. How many languages can you speak?
4 languages

41. Do you have any magazine
subscrip tions?
no

42.. Which are better Legos or Lincoln
Logs?
ha??..none

43. Are you stubborn?
sometime

44. Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
letter man

45. Ever watch soap operas?
what is sp?

46. Afraid of heights?
love em

47. Sing in the car?
yes.with all my sibling.

48. Dance in the shower?
hmmm...

49. Dance in the car?
sitting

50. Ever used a gun?
never

51. Last time you got a portrait taken
by a photographer?
I am a photographer..

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
yes

53. Is Christmas stressful?
never think of it

54. Ever eat a pierogi?
i wish i know that stuff..

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
apple

56. Occupations you wanted to be when
you were a kid?
doctor

57. Do you believe in ghosts?
yes

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
yes

59. Take a vitamin daily?
I hope i can take it..I just started taking spirulina today

60. Wear slippers?
yes.

61. Wear a bath robe?
no

6 2. What do you wear to bed?
something comfortable..

63. First concert?
I'll announce it later..

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Wal-Mart

6 5. Nike or Adidas?
Both..

66.Cheetos Or Fritos?
cheetos

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Sunflower seeds.

68. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
No.

69. Ever take dance lessons?
no.

70. Is there a profession you picture
your future spouse doing?
Something that can make money..in a proper way.

71. Can you curl your tongue?
yes..wanna see it?

72. Ever won a spelling bee?
once

73. Have you ever cried because you
were so happy?
yes..

74. Own any record albums?
No

75. Own a record player?
No

76. Regularly burn incense?
No

77. Ever been in love?
Yes...yes....yes

78. Who would you like to see in
concert?
...

79. Who was your last text from?
titie..

80.Hot tea or cold tea?
hot tea

81.Tea or coffee?
coffee

82. Sugar or snickerdoodles?
sugar

83.Can you swim well?
average

8 4.Can you hold your breath without
holding your nose?
yes..for 2 minutes..my last record that

8 5. Are you patient?
yes..i think

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
band

87.Ever won a contest?
yes..

88. Ever have plastic surgery?
I wish i can do a plastic surgery on ... ( secret, but it is sure not a breast surgery!!)

89. Which are better black or green
olives?
green

90.Can you knit or crochet?
no

91. Best room for a fireplace?
Living room.

92. Do you want to get married?
Yes

93. If married, how long have you been
married?
I want to be forever...

94. Who are your celebrity crushes?
ohhoo...all the handsome celebrity..

95. Do you cry and throw a fit until
you get your own way?
yes

9 6. Do you have kids?
No yet

9 7. Do you want kids?
Yes. 3 or 4.

98. Whats your favorite color?
white, blue

99. Do you miss anyone right now?
yes

1 00. Did you watch Next Great American
Band on FOX?
no..

itzbeeyhonye

2007-10-03T04:25:00.001+08:00

My Tuesday activity

2007-10-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

It is tuesday..and i got class and quiz today..haha, but the quiz is quite interesting. I just read the note which I copy from my friend once last night. As reading i felt so sleepy then finish reading straightly I went to sleep then wake up about an hour after that..I have to wake up and eat for sahur..

Talking bout the quiz..it's quite interesting, my lecturer En.Yaakob is a "skema" type of lecturer and he giving us a piece pf paper then he read the questions and we answers it. It was like a primary school quiz i think..( memory of primary's hit me..huhu)..and in fact En Yaakob is a kind lecturer, he give us clues and also answers on some of the question..haha..what a quiz..

reaching at home, I then do my environmental economics..haha..just 2 question but I'm kind of confused on the calculation that i've done..learning the environmental economic actually a great and fun lesson..finally i just can't go on anymore..I'm surrendering to my sleepy mood..went for a sleep for about 1 and half hour.

I don't really understand why I can't sleep for hours like other..Other people can sleep for about 12 hours and I just can't..there is always something..it is like my alarm instinct that wake me up..It always been like that..

I'm thinking about some craps that keep hanging in my mind..I really don't understand and I don't expect for such things to happened .. I want a peace life...!

Going Back!!!! Yuhuu...

2007-10-01T21:15:00.000+08:00

Finally, it's time to go home.. Back for Aidilfitri.. But I'm kinda busy this week with all those assignment and quiz tomorrow..a student's pathetic life!
then again I have to buy all those thing my sisters told me to buy here..such messy thing in my brain right now but not my behaving okay..Hehe
then again I have to bring all those assignment and make sure it wiil be completed by the time I come to KL again!!
Environmental Economic, Research Methodology and the most important thing my research this sem...!!

infact, I still don't have a new baju raya for this aidilfitri..
haha..I'm thinking of wearing a dress for raya..hehe
It's kinda a bit stressing here actually..I'm having a hard time right now..but thanks to all those surrounding me which keep cheering me up..keeping their ear to heard ol those nonsense feeling..hahaha
I's great to have you all!!
And I'm gratefully happy mumbling, shitting ol those nonsense thing in my mind in this blog..
I hope going back will make me more at ease..feeling the breeze of home..
then when I'll go back here i dun have the same burden like what it feels right now...

Technology never die..

2007-09-29T14:24:00.000+08:00

Adobe Photoshop CS3 is in the market now..

They are two edition available for the new Adobe Photoshop CS3:
Adobe Photoshop CS3:

Ideal for:

Adobe Photoshop CS3 Extended:

Ideal for:

~~waiting for the pirate version..~~hikzzz

Back to basic

2007-09-28T17:57:00.000+08:00

Want one? Go to www.geocities.com/testiflash

Do we woman are that vulnerable?

2007-09-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

I have been reading the latest abduction cases, homicide, rape and so on where the victim are female. They have been so many cases that make me wonder, are we, woman are that vulnerable. ..?I focus this scope on woman that have been unbearable violently by man. Where's the humanity traits other man have...?How come it vanished??

There a time when I used to go alone whether to KL or other places ( if no one to accompany, (*_^) actually), and while going alone, its really feel like we are free, independent and brave woman. But come to think again, after those bumps of cases, news of the violence act of woman, it make me afraid, its seems like there is no safe zone anymore in Malaysia. Is this what a woman should confront with? Positively thinking, we cannot be guarded 24 hours by men. Not saying that this is restraining us, the girls..woman, but there are time when we have to stand on our on foot and doing things on ourself.

The criminal for woman are so terrible. I wonder if some people has lose the sense of guilty. Killing is a seriously a bad manner. What really makes them unsatisfied with this world, when they have to act like God to take other peoples life. Frankly speaking, I am so what to say, tidak habis fikir why woman that should be a victim for a violence crime. Above all that, I just praying that someday those heartless, brainless man will be punished by the sins of crime that has been committed.

Gonna luv dis song as a favourite 'ol time

2007-09-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

Johnny wanna be a big star
Get on stage and play the guitar
Make a little money, buy a fancy car
Big old house and an alligator
Just to match with them alligator shoes
He's a rich man so he's no longer singing the blues
He's singing songs about material things
And platinum rings and watches that go bling
But, diamonds don't bling in the dark
He a star now, but he ain't singing from the heart
Sooner or later he's just gonna fall apart
Coz his fans can't relate to his new found art
He ain't doing what he did from the start
And that's putting in some feeling and thought
He decided to live his life shallow
Passion is love for material
~~~~~~~
And its gone... gone... going...
Gone... everything gone... give a damn...
Gone be the birds when they don't want to sing...
Gone people... up awkward with their things... gone.

You see yourself in the mirror
And you feel safe coz it looks familiar
But you afraid to open up your soul
Coz you don't really know, don't really know
Who is, the person that's deep within
Coz you are content with just being the naôve brown man
And you fail to see that its trivial
Insignificant, you addicted to material
I've seen your kind before
Your the type that thinks souls is sold in a store
Packaged up with inscent sticks
With them vegetarian meals
To you that's righteous
You're fiction like books
You need to go out to life and look
Coz... what happens when they take your material
You already sold your soul and its...
~~~~~~
You say that time is money and money is time
So you got mind in your money and your money on your mind
But what about... that crime that you did to get paid
And what about... that bid, you can't take it to your brain
Why you on about those shoes you'll wear today
They'll do no good on the bridges you've walked along the way

All that money that you got gonna be gone
That gear that you rock gonna be gone
The house up on the hill gonna be gone
The gold -- on your grill gonna be gone
The ice on your wrist gonna be gone
That nice little Miss gonna be gone
That whip that you roll gonna be gone
And what's worst is your soul will be gone

The Great Thinker are not that pretty, but their mind are pretty

2007-09-26T02:08:00.000+08:00

Relaxing..Play some games..

Strategy Games makes your brain working..learning to think what outside that big black boX

Play Games at AddictingGames

Fun with Blogthing ` ~ mix with Japanese, Italian, Irish`~

2007-09-22T13:16:00.000+08:00

Your Japanese Name Is...

Kumiko Tokudaiji

waoooo

Your Italian Name Is...

Aldabella Giordano

Your Irish Name Is...

Fiona McLoughlin

The Mysteries of Fasting the month of Ramadhan

2007-09-22T01:32:00.000+08:00

The Mysteries of Fasting
the Month of Ramadan

THE INWARD CONDITIONS OF FASTING

Imam Ghazzali

There are three degrees of fasting:

1. The fast of the ordinary person.

The fast of the ordinary person as described above consists of the abstinence of appetite, sexual intercourse, noise, arguing etc ...

In addition to the fara'id, obligations of the fast, the seeker may advance in his practice by observation of the traditions (Sunnah) of the Holy Prophet, upon whom be peace.

2. The fast of the select few.
3. The fast of the elite.

The Fast of the Select Few

The fast of the select few is that of keeping the ears, eyes, tongue, hands, feet together with all the other senses free from sin.

These virtuous people free themselves from sin in six ways:

1. Refraining from looking at anything that is blameworthy or disapproved. Jabir, on the authority of Anas related that the Messenger of Allah, praise and peace be upon him, said:

"There are five things that break the fast; telling lies, backbiting, telling tales, perjury, covetousness and lustful eyes."

2. Keeping the tongue free from ranting and raving, lying, backbiting, tale-telling, obscenity, abusive speech, wrangling, and hypocrisy. Rather, one should busy oneself with the remembrance and exaltation of Allah, as well as the recitation of the Holy Koran - this is the fasting of the tongue.

3. Closing the ears to all that is reprehensible. The Messenger of Allah, praise and peace be upon him, said:

"The backbiter and the listeners are partners in sin."

4. Constraint of the rest of the senses from sin. Restraining the hand from evil, curbing the foot for the pursuit of wickedness, avoidance of questionable foods at the break of the fast.
The Messenger of Allah, praise and peace be upon him, said:

"Many receive nothing from the fast except hunger and thirst."

This hadith has been explained as referring to the person who breaks the fast on unlawful food and drink. It has also been explained as referring to people who abstain from halal food and break the fast on the flesh of men through illicit backbiting, also, that it refers to the person who does not keep his senses free from sin.

5. Over indulgence when breaking the fast, even when the food is halal. The spirit as well as the secret of fasting is to weaken the flesh which is satan's tool for turning mankind back to evil.

6. After breaking the fast, the heart should remain in a state of suspense between fear and hope as one does not know whether the fast has been accepted.

"Al Ahnaf, son of Kays was once told: "You are an old man, and fasting will make you weak." He replied: "This fast is my preparation for a long journey. Indeed, to endure the yoke in the service of Allah is easier than to endure the yoke of His wrath.

The fasting person who is not truly fasting is the one, who while in a state of hunger and thirst allows himself every freedom in sin. But the one who truly understands fasting and its secret knows that whosoever abstains from food, drink, sexual intercourse but commits all manner of sins is like the person who, in performing the ablution runs his hand over one of his limbs thrice, thereby outwardly fulfilling the Law as far as the limb is concerned, but neglecting the truly important thing which is the actual washing. Consequently because of his ignorance, his prayer is rejected.

Whereas, the one who breaks the fast through eating but observes it by keeping himself free from sin is like the person who, in performing the ablution, washes each of the limbs of his body once only. His prayers are, by the will of Allah, accepted because he has fulfilled the principal thing in the ablution although he has failed to fulfill its details. But whosoever does both is like the person who, in performing the ablution, washes each limb of his body thrice, thereby fulfilling both the principal purpose of ablution as well as its elaborate details which constitutes perfection.

The Messenger of Allah, praise and peace be upon him said: "Indeed, fasting is a trust; let each, therefore, take good care of his trust." When he recited the verse "Allah orders you all to hand back the trusts to their owners ..." he raised his hands so that they touched his ears and eyes and said:

"The gift of hearing and sight are each a trust from Allah." Similarly, the gift of speech is a trust, for if it were not so the Messenger of Allah, praise and peace be upon him, would not have said: "If anyone disputes with another and swears at him, let the latter say 'I am fasting, I am fasting."

It is clear, then, that every act of worship possesses an outward form and an internal form - an external husk and internal pith.

The husks are of different grades and each grade has different layers. It is for you to choose whether to be content with the husk or join the company of the wise and learned.

The Fast of the Elite

The fast of the elite is the fast of the heart from bad thoughts, worldly worries and anything else that may divert from anything but thoughts of Allah.

The Fast of the Elite means fasting of the heart from unworthy concerns and worldly thoughts, in total disregard of everything but God, Great and Glorious is He. This kind of Fast is broken by thinking of worldly matters, except for those conducive to religious ends, since these constitute provision for the Hereafter and are not of this lower world. Those versed in the spiritual life of the heart have even said that a sin is recorded against one who concerns himself all day with arrangements for breaking his Fast. Such anxiety stems from lack of trust in the bounty of God, Great and Glorious is He, and from lack of certain faith in His promised sustenance.

To this third degree belong the Prophets, the true awliya and the intimates of God. It does not lend itself to detailed examination in words, as its true nature is better revealed in action. It consists in utmost dedication to God, Great and Glorious is He, to the neglect of everything other than God, Exalted is He. It is bound up with the significance of His words: 'Say: "Allah (sent it down)": then leave them to play in their vain discussions.' [al-An'am,6:91]

Inward Requirements

As for Special Fasting, this is the kind practiced by the righteous. It means keeping all one's organs free from sin and six things are required for its accomplishment:

1. SEE NOT WHAT DISPLEASES GOD

A chaste regard, restrained from viewing anything that is blameworthy or reprehensible, or that distracts the heart and diverts it from the remembrance of God, Great and Glorious is He. Said the Prophet, on him be peace: 'The furtive glance is one of the poisoned arrows of Satan, on him be God's curse. Whoever forsakes it for fear of God will receive from Him, Great and Glorious is He, a faith the sweetness of which he will find within his heart.' Jabir relates from Anas that God's Messenger, on him be peace, said: 'Five things break a man's Fast: lying, backbiting, gossiping, perjury and a lustful gaze.'

2. SPEAK NOT WHAT DISPLEASES GOD

Guarding one's tongue from idle chatter, lying, gossiping, obscenity, rudeness, arguing and controversy; making it observe silence and occupying it with remembrance of God, Great and Glorious is He, and with recitation of Quran. This is the fasting of the tongue.
Said Sufyan: 'Backbiting annuls the Fast.' Layth quotes Mujahid as saying: 'Two habits annul Fasting: backbiting and telling lies.' The Prophet, on him be peace, said: 'Fasting is a shield; so when one of you is Fasting he should not use foul or foolish talk. If someone attacks him or insults him, let him say: "I am Fasting, I am Fasting!"'

According to Tradition: 'Two women were Fasting during the time of God's Messenger, on him be peace. They were so fatigued towards the end of the day, from hunger and thirst, that they were on the verge of collapsing. They therefore sent a message to God's Messenger, on him be peace, requesting permission to break their Fast. In response, the Prophet, on him be peace, sent them a bowl and said: "Tell them to vomit into it what they have eaten." One of them vomited and half filled the bowl with fresh blood and tender meat, while the other brought up the same so that they filled it between them. The onlookers were astonished. Then the Prophet, on him be peace, said: "These two women have been Fasting from what God made lawful to them, and have broken their Fast on what God, Exalted is He, made unlawful to them. They sat together and indulged in backbiting, and here is the flesh of the people they maligned!"'

3. HEAR NOT WHAT DISPLEASES GOD

Closing one's ears to everything reprehensible; for everything unlawful to utter is likewise unlawful to listen to. That is why God, Great and Glorious is He, equated the eavesdropper with the profiteer, in His words, Exalted is He: 'Listeners to falsehood, consumers of illicit gain.' [al- Ma'idah, 5:42] God, Great and Glorious is He, also said: 'Why do their rabbis and priests not forbid them to utter sin and consume unlawful profit?' [al-Ma'idah, 5:63] Silence in the face of backbiting is therefore unlawful. God, Exalted is He, said: 'You are then just like them.' [al-Nisa, 4:140] That is why the Prophet, on him be peace, said: 'The backbiter and his listener are copartners in sin.'

4. DO NOT WHAT DISPLEASES GOD

Keeping all other limbs and organs away from sin: the hands and feet from reprehensible deeds, and the stomach from questionable food at the time for breaking Fast. It is meaningless to Fast -- to abstain from lawful food - only to break one's Fast on what is unlawful. A man who Fast like this may be compared to one who builds a castle but demolishes a city. Lawful food injurious in quantity not in quality, so Fasting is to reduce the former. A person might well give up excessive use of medicine, from fear of ill effects, but he would be a fool to switch to taking poison. The unlawful is a poison deadly to religion, while the lawful is a medicine, beneficial in small doses but harmful in excess.
The object of Fasting is to induce moderation. Said the Prophet, on him be peace: 'How many of those who Fast get nothing from it but hunger and thirst!' This has been taken to mean those who break their Fast on unlawful food. Some say it refers to those who abstain from lawful food, but break their Fast on human flesh through backbiting, which is unlawful. Others consider it an allusion to those who do not guard their organs from sin.

5. AVOID OVEREATING

Not to over-indulge in lawful food at the time of breaking Fast, to the point of stuffing one's belly. There is no receptacle more odious to God, Great and Glorious is He, than a belly stuffed full with lawful food. Of what use is the Fast as a means of conquering God's enemy and abating appetite, if at the time of breaking it one not only makes up for all one has missed during the daytime, but perhaps also indulges in a variety of extra foods? It has even become the custom to stock up for Ramadan with all kinds of foodstuffs, so that more is consumed during that time than in the course of several other months put together.

It is well known that the object of Fasting is to experience hunger and to check desire, in order to reinforce the soul in piety. If the stomach is starved from early morning till evening, so that its appetite is aroused and its craving intensified, and it is then offered delicacies and allowed to eat its fill, its taste for pleasure is increased and its force exaggerated; passions are activated which would have lain dormant under normal conditions.

The spirit and secret nature of Fasting is to weaken the forces which are Satan's means of leading us back to evil. It is therefore essential to cut down one's intake to what one would consume on a normal night, when not Fasting. No benefit is derived from the Fast if one consumes as much as one would usually take during the day and night combined.
Moreover, one of the properties consists in taking little sleep during the daytime, so that one feels the hunger and thirst and becomes conscious of the weakening of one's powers, with the consequent purification of the heart. One should let a certain degree of weakness carry over into the night, making it easier to perform the night Prayers (tahajjud) and to recite the praises (awrad). It may then be that Satan will not hover around one's heart, and that one will behold the Kingdom of Heaven.
The Night of Destiny represents the night on which something of this Kingdom is revealed. This is what is meant by the words of God, Exalted is He: 'We surely revealed it on the Night of Power.' [al-Qadr, 97:1] Anyone who puts a bag of food between his heart and his breast becomes blind to this revelation. Nor is keeping the stomach empty sufficient to remove the veil, unless one also empties the mind of everything but God, Great and Glorious is He. That is the entire matter, and the starting point of it all is cutting down on food.

6. LOOK TO GOD WITH FEAR AND HOPE

After the Fast has been broken, the heart should swing like a pendulum between fear and hope. For one does not know if one's Fast will be accepted, so that one will find favor with God, or whether it will be rejected, leaving one among those He abhors. This is how one should be at the end of any act of worship one performs.

It is related of al-Hasan ibn Abil Hasan al-Basri that he once passed by a group of people who were laughing merrily. He said: 'God, Great and Glorious is He, has made the month of Ramadan a racecourse, on which His creatures compete in His worship. Some have come in first and won, while others have lagged behind and lost. It is absolutely amazing to find anybody laughing and playing about on the day when success attends the victors, and failure the wasters. By God, if the veil were lifted off, the doer of good would surely be preoccupied with his good works and the evildoer with his evil deeds.' In too full of joy to indulge in idle sport, while for one who has suffered rejection laughter will be precluded by remorse.

Of al-Ahnaf ibn Qays it is reported that he was once told: 'You are an aged elder; Fasting would enfeeble you.' But he replied: 'By this I am making ready for a long journey, Obedience to God, Glorified is He, is easier to endure than His punishment.' Such are the inwardly significant meanings of Fasting.

Al-Ghazali, Inner Dimensions of Islamic Worship

~Source~ http://www.sunnah.org/ibadaat/fasting/ramadan2.html

~~beauty die in d' mirror_

2007-09-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

~Mirror, mirror in the world, who is the fairest in the world~

Hell, you not stepping on the real world. Beauty is not on the look of the beholder. Actually its irritating and troublesome to look, observe and think of other people but sometimes we just can't get away of it.

I'm listening to Beyonce song's ~Don't fight the feeling~ right now. Its just a good song to describe my feeling. Sick of facing the troublesome things in life. Thinking of my friends, my primary school mates, high school mates and my matriculation mates..they just lovable..
Then I realized, we cannot to depending on other, even though they are your truly friend.
Damn!!

hey there my friendzz, how are you all now??

Photographic Addiction

2007-09-12T14:20:00.000+08:00

Just a beginner.
I love photography.
This picture is taken in Sabah.
I do not know what should be the theme but well just a beginner trying to find myself in the photography world.

This picture is taken by a professional photographer, fre Miranda.
It just so an excellent art of work. Just by seeing the picture, we can tell and told what lies beneath it.

I think i like both editing picture and photo.

2007-09-08T00:16:00.001+08:00

They say..I quote

The past cannot be change, the future is still in your power.
- Hugh White -

It is sometimes hard to cross that bridge,
try something new, or make that change.
But once you do, you will realize
that things are usually never as bad as we imagine.
- Michelle C. Ustaszeski -

I Say..

You are a survivor when you are born in this world..so no matter how hard life's been going..you must still be a survivor.

I will not grieved 'ol d sweet treasure that happened..rather i will find splendour in d memories..

I am a survivor when I was born in this world..so no matter how hard life's been going..I must still be a survivor.

Pain has never lose a battle.

- Beey -